Hm, today is my Birthday. If I had friends I would have had a party. It's just me and my family. Shit, I remember last year. The party I had seems like yesterday. Ren and Ashton were here. We stayed up all night and played around, writing things and having fun. Being lonely's a bitch. Even when you have a good day the night always has some sting to it. Today will be cool. Whatever. Memories and crap. Please Sorrel, I miss you. There I go, thinking I'm special and deserving of pity or something. Really, I'm just stupid and blowing my misfortune out of porportion. It won't kill me. Still, I admit that it's a good vent to whine about being in my worst days. I will never give in. Sorrel, if one year ago seems like yesterday, will the days until I find you seem as short? Maybe they'll fly by. I tell you one thing. I'm sick of Pablo. He throws around the word 'best friend'. "Oh, Douglas, my best friend.--Oh, Caitlin my best friend.--Oh Kimberly my best frined." That word is not a joke. I'm also sick of my main therapist. She just wants to argue with me. One more screw up and she might just be fired form me. I also hate my science teacher. She tries to teach us things that are either wrong or stupid. She counts people late if they're right outiside the door when the bell rings. She sucks. Also, I still despise Ashton with every fiber of my being. I wish she could feel as bad as I do with intrest. Hm, on a roll much? I'm also sick of all the people that pretend to care or just care about me a little bit. I hate the people who hate and make fun of me for just acting the way I am. If anyone finds out about anything I like, Damn I never hear the end of it. "Oh, you like foxes? Well, I kill foxes. Cole kills foxes too! Their pelts are worth X amount of money!" or "That guy over there like cats. OMG . Cats of all things!" I think I'm getting better a fooling people about my gender, though. One guy on the street said "Hey, dude!" and someone else kept calling me girl. Also, someone in the lunchroom asked their friend if I was a guy or a girl. You know you're getting good if you're carrying a dark purple messenger bag and people are still puzzled at your gender. Score!
It's easy really. All you have to do is adopt the right mannerisms, speak little, and wear neutral clothes. Then you're golden for tricking people! For my birthday I wanted a Sapphire Pegasus tin of cards, Loveless Four, a graphics tablet, and a game for my sp. Neh, I should save up and get a ds. I hope I get everything, though now I feel a bit selfish. XD Oh well, I get cake and my favorite icecream. It'll be good.
Maybe I'll hang tight.